So Joshua called together the twelve men he had chosen—one from each of the tribes of Israel. He told them, “Go into the middle of the Jordan, in front of the Ark of the lord your God. Each of you must pick up one stone and carry it out on your shoulder—twelve stones in all, one for each of the twelve tribes of Israel. We will use these stones to build a memorial. In the future your children will ask you, ‘What do these stones mean?’ Then you can tell them, ‘They remind us that the Jordan River stopped flowing when the Ark of the lord ’s Covenant went across.’ These stones will stand as a memorial among the people of Israel forever.” (Joshua 4:4-7 NLT)

What are your 12 Stones? Can you look back and see stones that are placed strategically just so you and those around you can remember ALL He has done! God reminded me of this today. Even in the midst of tears and snot running down my face He was faithful to remind me the reason I am alive. The purpose and prayers of my heart. He reminds me of all that He has promised and that is what keeps my heart going. Will it hurt? Will it be costly? Will it be a sacrifice? Of course, but will it be worth it? Will what comes from my yes be worth the moment of uncomfortable emotions and a heart breaking? Indeed it will! When I see freedom break out and love explode in and through me and become contagious around me! YES!!!!

There I was driving and it hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart all the sudden filled with sorrow and a heart break that can only be explain by the powerful words of this song:

I was born on a moving train
wanderlust runs through my veins
all my effort all my will
won’t tame this heart it won’t be still

I crave a place to call my own
yet I long to follow the winds that blow
one hand clings to the ties I’ve bound
while the other untethers me from the ground

And it breaks my heart to walk away
and it breaks my heart to grow roots and stay
I chase my peace and I’m left to roam
where I go God only knows
where I go God only knows

When the dust clings to my feet
when I finally learn these streets
when strangers are strangers no more
when I’m welcome int their door
when I think I could settle down
when I’ve come to love this town
is when I must move up and on
I’ve just arrived and now I’m gone

oh and it breaks my heart to walk away
and it breaks my heart to grow roots and stay
I chase my peace and I’m left to roam
where I go God only knows
where I go God only knows

Oohhhhh Ohhhhh OOhhhhh Ohhhhhhhh

And it’s funny the things that break your heart
the things that you begin to miss
the things that you never would have thought
crept in your soul and left you this

and I thought I was so immune
but I didn’t care I was unaware
Yeah it’s funny the things that break your heart
Yet somehow you’re glad they do
Yet somehow I’m glad they do

and it breaks my heart to walk away
and it breaks my heart to grow roots and stay
I chase my peace and I’m left to roam
where I go God only knows
where I go God only knows
where I go God only knows
where I go God only knows

I am grateful that God took me today to a place that I can call one of those stones to remind me that although I find myself breaking, that is the place he breathes on me, So Lord breathe on me.